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Dara was stunned. By the time she'd recovered she already reached their floor.
"Dara unnie, where have you been, 2NE1tv is about to start," Minji called from their living room.
"Yes, I'll be joining you, wait just a tad bit." She directly went to their room and took her cellphone to text GD.
Dara: What was that you told me?
"Ssandara unnie, hurry up it's starting!" CL yelled.
Dara held her cellphone as if she was gonna crush it. Dara took a long breath. It felt like she hadnt taken one since she heard GD's words.
Then in her best imitation of Bom's voice she sweetly yelled back, "I'm coming!" Dara, you deserve a best actress award right now! She told herself.
"So what did I miss?"
"Nothing, where have you been to unnie?"
"I just took my cap I left at GD's place last night...oh, cool! we get to see the making of his MV today, yeah? cool!"
**
GD was still standing at the elevator by the time Dara has joined the girls. He leaned on the wall. He took the time to remember the scene, the date, the time, and thought - The world could change in a moment.
He found Dara's text a good 10 minutes after it was sent.
GD: I said you look good. Your fanboys must be taking care very well of you.
DAra: Damn it, Kwon Jiyong, i heard what you said!
GD: Wanna have ice cream with me right now?
Dara: How?
GD: *sends an ice cream on a cone image*
Dara: cute :) *sends an image of an empty ice cream cone*
GD: lol.. you eat fast. you dont make a good date. i havent gotten to the part where i hold your hand yet.
GD: Do i really look bad?
Dara: like a train wreck. Lucky you're Kwon Jiyong.
GD: Really just stressed these days.
Dara: I'll ask Bommie unnie to give you one of her deer belly button?
GD: It won't be enough.
Dara: I dont get it? Who is Y?
GD: what did i tell you?
Dara: You said that the girl's name you were thinking about when you wrote Butterfly starts with Y.
GD: You asked who the girl is. Remember I said I could only tell you? it's because it's YOU. It's always been you.
Dara: ...Kwon Jiyong, get me ice cream again. with more scoops!
GD: i finally decide to tell you and all you could think of is your stomach.
Dara: No, idiot, im not hungry, I just want you to get to the part where you hold my hand!!!
GD: In that case, im getting you a gallon.
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Monday, August 24, 2009
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Part 2: In Or Out
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Dara positioned herself in the treadmill to start warming up for her daily workout. She brought her Ipod today as she planned to shut herself from everyone, at least she'd try, that is. She's going to work her butt off, make herself get so sexy and make GD drool over her flat abs and toned sexy body. She might just ask Seung Ho to fit her in a mini outfit for tomorrow`s DMA award red carpet. Oh yeah, bad girl on a loose right here.
She put the player`s mode to shuffle, pressed play and heard their song Let's Go Party. Nice, she told herself and started the treadmill. She hummed to it…"Lets go party, work that body, nega neomu geuriun oneul gateum naren…"
The next song was their remixed version of I Don`t Care. The thought of GD and the beat of the song unconsciously made her pace faster. I hate you GD, she said to herself. She didn’t want to be affected but heck, she is affected.
Dara closed her eyes. Let go, Dara, she told herself this time, forget that GD for now, just concentrate. She slowed down just as the song ended. She was warmed up now and prepared herself for a run. She started running when the next song that played was GD`s Heartbreaker. She rolled her eyes and pressed on to Next button.
It played their song Hello.
Hello yourself. You and your Y girl can just get lost.
She pressed forward again and this time her In Or Out song played.
“Oh, c`mon! You gotta be kidding me!!!” she screamed. This time everyone heard her. The other building heard her, as Bom would joke later.
The room stopped and all eyes were on Dara.
But she didn’t notice. She was occupied in finding and pressing Next once again when she lost her balance and tumbled on the floor -- face, legs, everything went down.
“OMO!!!”
“Dara, unnie!!!!”
***
“Aigooo, it hurts, you guys.”
They were gathered around her now after helping her to get a seat.
“Are you sure you`re okay?” Bom asked her.
“I am but my hair isn`t. Tie it up Chaerin, pretty please.”
CL did and suggested to have the trainer look at it.
“No, really, Im good. It just hurts, naturally but it`s all good. Don`t worry about me. Go on now, continue your workout. Im just gonna rest for awhile before I join you back, yeah?”
“Just say if you need anything, unnie,” Minji offered, and the girls left her.
The Mnet staff stayed and continued filming her and Dara managed to smile at the camera.
“I hurt myself.. here,” she said holding her left ankle.
She took her phone and notebook from her bag. She tore strips of paper from her notebook and pressed them on her cheeks as if they were tears flowing from her eyes. She then asked the camera guy to take her picture.
GD went through his online accounts and it overwhelmed him to see so many encouraging words from fans posted in his me2day. He also saw in Cyworld that his friends all have his Heartbreaker album songs for their background music. Even Dara. His precious Dara has Heartbreaker, The Leaders, and Hello in her minihopy.
GD smiled. Just then he saw Dara update her me2day and quickly clicked on it.
He saw the pic with the message. “Aigoo! I hurt myself earlier. TT. Stupid Dara. Careless Dara.”
*
Lolli Lolli Oh Lollipop Lolli Lolli Oh Lollipop Nah that’s not how we do it..
Dara heard her phone ring and took a mental note to change her ringtone later. She didn’t even looked at who was calling when she answered it.
“Hello?”
“Ya…I saw your update. Why do you have to be so careless? You just want to look cute don’t you? I knew it, after you broke that trophy it won’t be long until you break your bones.”
It was GD on the other line.
Something is seriously wrong with you, isn’t it? Why can`t you just admit you`re concerned instead of this teasing shit you`re fronting. She wanted to say.
“Well, obviously, its not the treadmills fault so it`s gotta be mine. Is this why you called, to laugh at my clumsiness?”
“Yeah, coz, you`re so cute when you are. But hey, it`s not anything serious, is it?”
Dara did really sense him getting serious right there but something told her not to fall for it.
“I`m fine. You didn`t have to call. Really.”
There was silence between them.
“I want to see it myself. Anything I can get for you?”
“No, really you don’t have to. Besides, don’t you have rehearsal today? Don’t let me get in the way of it. Why don`t you just let Top come. I want dried mangoes. Thanks. Ummm, bye.”
She hung up.
Dara couldn`t believe what she just said. Dara, what have you done? She asked herself. Stupid. So stupid! She wanted to cry. She picked herself up to lock herself in the washroom but her ankle hurt. She felt helpless. She secretly wished for GD to come. But there`s no way that’s happening now after she rudely dismissed him. The nerve of her to act as if GD owed her something. The nerve of her to act as if she was his gf that he needed to woo.
*
GD couldn’t believe what he just heard. He`s sitting in his car at the car park of the building where 2NE1`s practice room is located. He called her while driving. He sure didn’t mean to ask her permission to visit her but her tone told him she doesn’t want to see him.
He got out. The building seemed taller now. The sun seemed hotter. Should he still go in?... In or Out?
*
“Hey, Ji, `sup bro!” Top greeted GD on the phone.
“Bro, wherever you are now, get your ass up, Dara is hurt. Why don’t you go see her now?”
“What? Is it serious?”
“Not really, I think. Just go see her coz I don`t really know. And bring mangoes. She`d like that.”
“Cool, I`ll do that. Thanks a lot Ji. I owe you. I`ll call you later then. Bye.”
*
Top found Dara being nursed by their trainer. They’ve now applied cold compress to her ankle.
“Hi guys, hi Dara. Heard you hurt your ankle.”
“Yeah, but it`s better now. They`re taking care of me.”
“I`m glad to hear that. I was worried…I mean, we, all of the boys were worried…so, yeah, uhm, they sent me here to bring you some dried mangoes. Thought it`d make you feel better…somehow.”
Dara wanted to melt. She could see the girls doing their best to keep their giggling from being too obvious. They are being filmed after all. Epic fail.
“Thanks. Ahh, my YG family is very sweet. Pres. YG, Jinu oppa, Gummy, Go Hye Sun, among others, they called and texted me to show their concern.” Dara said talking to the cam while showing the mangoes but it remained awkward as the others all just stood – smiling. Mum. Epic fail #2.
“Ok,” Top broke the silence, “I guess that’s it for me then. Will go now. Nice to see you girls…Dara… Get well soon.”
They said their anyeongs and Top hurriedly left them.
*
“Everything okay, Ji?” It was Shaun Evaristo asking GD on their rehearsal for his debut stage.
“Huh, yeah, everything`s cool, why?”
“Well, I just noticed that you missed a step there. Actually, it`s the third time now.”
“Oh, sorry man, uhm, guess i`m just really tired from the party last night. Can we just call it a day? We`ve been practicing for five hours now, anyway.”
“Sure, it`s your call. Ok.”
It was 30 minutes before YGtv aired and GD paced back and forth his room. He wanted to call Top but he`s unsure if he really wanted to hear about it. What if they finally did hit it off? Someone is so gonna nail his door and lock himself from the cruel world. Damn it!
There was a knock on the door and his mom informed him that Dara was waiting outside.
"Hi, Dara, come inside…don’t worry Gaho is asleep right now. I guess you really are okay now." He said looking at her feet.
"Yeah. Thanks. I told you it was nothing. And about earlier, i`m sorry for being a bitch. "
"Were you? I didn`t even notice."
They just smiled at each other.
GD raised his right fist and she hit it with her left. He thought of asking about Top but he stopped himself -the world is right how it should be right now.
"I think I left my red cap here. Have you seen it?"
"Yeah, actually, umma did this morning. I forgot to tell you. It`s in my room…hopefully Gaho hasn`t shredded it to bits. "
" Ah, youre bad."
"Oh, I`m bad? Didn`t you just admit you were a bitch to me?"
Some silence.
"So, why didn’t you just come in?"
"Huh?"
"I saw your car leave the building, Ji. "
"Ah...Why?...Well you said you didn`t wanna see me."
"I don`t remember saying that. "
"Well, it doesn`t matter. You asked for Top hyung."
"I was pissed, ok? You should`ve told me you were already there."
"Are you saying you really didn`t wanna see him?"
Dara felt guilty.
"Can I have my cap now? The girls will be looking for me and it won`t be long `til a cam follow me here."
GD took it from his room.
“Here, since you`re so worried about your fanboys finding you here in my place."
Dara felt like rolling her eyes but she wanted to play with him this time.
"What`s wrong with that. It sure is fun having them go crazy over me. "
Unlike she expected, there was no response from GD
GD saw her towards the elevator. Dara held the door inside.
"Anyeong."
"Anyeong."
"By the way, Blondie, you look bad. Tell Ms. Y to give you some love coz you look like you really need one. Hehe." She sure thought it was pretty funny and released the OPEN button.
GD stepped closer. "I can`t. She`d rather have her fan boys` love than mine."
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Dara positioned herself in the treadmill to start warming up for her daily workout. She brought her Ipod today as she planned to shut herself from everyone, at least she'd try, that is. She's going to work her butt off, make herself get so sexy and make GD drool over her flat abs and toned sexy body. She might just ask Seung Ho to fit her in a mini outfit for tomorrow`s DMA award red carpet. Oh yeah, bad girl on a loose right here.
She put the player`s mode to shuffle, pressed play and heard their song Let's Go Party. Nice, she told herself and started the treadmill. She hummed to it…"Lets go party, work that body, nega neomu geuriun oneul gateum naren…"
The next song was their remixed version of I Don`t Care. The thought of GD and the beat of the song unconsciously made her pace faster. I hate you GD, she said to herself. She didn’t want to be affected but heck, she is affected.
Dara closed her eyes. Let go, Dara, she told herself this time, forget that GD for now, just concentrate. She slowed down just as the song ended. She was warmed up now and prepared herself for a run. She started running when the next song that played was GD`s Heartbreaker. She rolled her eyes and pressed on to Next button.
It played their song Hello.
Hello yourself. You and your Y girl can just get lost.
She pressed forward again and this time her In Or Out song played.
“Oh, c`mon! You gotta be kidding me!!!” she screamed. This time everyone heard her. The other building heard her, as Bom would joke later.
The room stopped and all eyes were on Dara.
But she didn’t notice. She was occupied in finding and pressing Next once again when she lost her balance and tumbled on the floor -- face, legs, everything went down.
“OMO!!!”
“Dara, unnie!!!!”
***
“Aigooo, it hurts, you guys.”
They were gathered around her now after helping her to get a seat.
“Are you sure you`re okay?” Bom asked her.
“I am but my hair isn`t. Tie it up Chaerin, pretty please.”
CL did and suggested to have the trainer look at it.
“No, really, Im good. It just hurts, naturally but it`s all good. Don`t worry about me. Go on now, continue your workout. Im just gonna rest for awhile before I join you back, yeah?”
“Just say if you need anything, unnie,” Minji offered, and the girls left her.
The Mnet staff stayed and continued filming her and Dara managed to smile at the camera.
“I hurt myself.. here,” she said holding her left ankle.
She took her phone and notebook from her bag. She tore strips of paper from her notebook and pressed them on her cheeks as if they were tears flowing from her eyes. She then asked the camera guy to take her picture.
GD went through his online accounts and it overwhelmed him to see so many encouraging words from fans posted in his me2day. He also saw in Cyworld that his friends all have his Heartbreaker album songs for their background music. Even Dara. His precious Dara has Heartbreaker, The Leaders, and Hello in her minihopy.
GD smiled. Just then he saw Dara update her me2day and quickly clicked on it.
He saw the pic with the message. “Aigoo! I hurt myself earlier. TT. Stupid Dara. Careless Dara.”
*
Lolli Lolli Oh Lollipop Lolli Lolli Oh Lollipop Nah that’s not how we do it..
Dara heard her phone ring and took a mental note to change her ringtone later. She didn’t even looked at who was calling when she answered it.
“Hello?”
“Ya…I saw your update. Why do you have to be so careless? You just want to look cute don’t you? I knew it, after you broke that trophy it won’t be long until you break your bones.”
It was GD on the other line.
Something is seriously wrong with you, isn’t it? Why can`t you just admit you`re concerned instead of this teasing shit you`re fronting. She wanted to say.
“Well, obviously, its not the treadmills fault so it`s gotta be mine. Is this why you called, to laugh at my clumsiness?”
“Yeah, coz, you`re so cute when you are. But hey, it`s not anything serious, is it?”
Dara did really sense him getting serious right there but something told her not to fall for it.
“I`m fine. You didn`t have to call. Really.”
There was silence between them.
“I want to see it myself. Anything I can get for you?”
“No, really you don’t have to. Besides, don’t you have rehearsal today? Don’t let me get in the way of it. Why don`t you just let Top come. I want dried mangoes. Thanks. Ummm, bye.”
She hung up.
Dara couldn`t believe what she just said. Dara, what have you done? She asked herself. Stupid. So stupid! She wanted to cry. She picked herself up to lock herself in the washroom but her ankle hurt. She felt helpless. She secretly wished for GD to come. But there`s no way that’s happening now after she rudely dismissed him. The nerve of her to act as if GD owed her something. The nerve of her to act as if she was his gf that he needed to woo.
*
GD couldn’t believe what he just heard. He`s sitting in his car at the car park of the building where 2NE1`s practice room is located. He called her while driving. He sure didn’t mean to ask her permission to visit her but her tone told him she doesn’t want to see him.
He got out. The building seemed taller now. The sun seemed hotter. Should he still go in?... In or Out?
*
“Hey, Ji, `sup bro!” Top greeted GD on the phone.
“Bro, wherever you are now, get your ass up, Dara is hurt. Why don’t you go see her now?”
“What? Is it serious?”
“Not really, I think. Just go see her coz I don`t really know. And bring mangoes. She`d like that.”
“Cool, I`ll do that. Thanks a lot Ji. I owe you. I`ll call you later then. Bye.”
*
Top found Dara being nursed by their trainer. They’ve now applied cold compress to her ankle.
“Hi guys, hi Dara. Heard you hurt your ankle.”
“Yeah, but it`s better now. They`re taking care of me.”
“I`m glad to hear that. I was worried…I mean, we, all of the boys were worried…so, yeah, uhm, they sent me here to bring you some dried mangoes. Thought it`d make you feel better…somehow.”
Dara wanted to melt. She could see the girls doing their best to keep their giggling from being too obvious. They are being filmed after all. Epic fail.
“Thanks. Ahh, my YG family is very sweet. Pres. YG, Jinu oppa, Gummy, Go Hye Sun, among others, they called and texted me to show their concern.” Dara said talking to the cam while showing the mangoes but it remained awkward as the others all just stood – smiling. Mum. Epic fail #2.
“Ok,” Top broke the silence, “I guess that’s it for me then. Will go now. Nice to see you girls…Dara… Get well soon.”
They said their anyeongs and Top hurriedly left them.
*
“Everything okay, Ji?” It was Shaun Evaristo asking GD on their rehearsal for his debut stage.
“Huh, yeah, everything`s cool, why?”
“Well, I just noticed that you missed a step there. Actually, it`s the third time now.”
“Oh, sorry man, uhm, guess i`m just really tired from the party last night. Can we just call it a day? We`ve been practicing for five hours now, anyway.”
“Sure, it`s your call. Ok.”
It was 30 minutes before YGtv aired and GD paced back and forth his room. He wanted to call Top but he`s unsure if he really wanted to hear about it. What if they finally did hit it off? Someone is so gonna nail his door and lock himself from the cruel world. Damn it!
There was a knock on the door and his mom informed him that Dara was waiting outside.
"Hi, Dara, come inside…don’t worry Gaho is asleep right now. I guess you really are okay now." He said looking at her feet.
"Yeah. Thanks. I told you it was nothing. And about earlier, i`m sorry for being a bitch. "
"Were you? I didn`t even notice."
They just smiled at each other.
GD raised his right fist and she hit it with her left. He thought of asking about Top but he stopped himself -the world is right how it should be right now.
"I think I left my red cap here. Have you seen it?"
"Yeah, actually, umma did this morning. I forgot to tell you. It`s in my room…hopefully Gaho hasn`t shredded it to bits. "
" Ah, youre bad."
"Oh, I`m bad? Didn`t you just admit you were a bitch to me?"
Some silence.
"So, why didn’t you just come in?"
"Huh?"
"I saw your car leave the building, Ji. "
"Ah...Why?...Well you said you didn`t wanna see me."
"I don`t remember saying that. "
"Well, it doesn`t matter. You asked for Top hyung."
"I was pissed, ok? You should`ve told me you were already there."
"Are you saying you really didn`t wanna see him?"
Dara felt guilty.
"Can I have my cap now? The girls will be looking for me and it won`t be long `til a cam follow me here."
GD took it from his room.
“Here, since you`re so worried about your fanboys finding you here in my place."
Dara felt like rolling her eyes but she wanted to play with him this time.
"What`s wrong with that. It sure is fun having them go crazy over me. "
Unlike she expected, there was no response from GD
GD saw her towards the elevator. Dara held the door inside.
"Anyeong."
"Anyeong."
"By the way, Blondie, you look bad. Tell Ms. Y to give you some love coz you look like you really need one. Hehe." She sure thought it was pretty funny and released the OPEN button.
GD stepped closer. "I can`t. She`d rather have her fan boys` love than mine."
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Saturday, August 22, 2009
Daragon Part 1: Hello
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August 18, 2009.
GD checked the time. It’s almost 11:30 now, people have slowly left an hour ago. Only YG, his fellow BBs, 2ne1 and SeungHo are left. He can see CL and SeungHo having a fun conversation at one corner while Bom and Minji are busy playing with his dog, Gaho. He surveyed the area. Where could Dara be? he thought. He felt a little burden in his shoulders when he sensed that Top hyung wasn’t there as well. Whatever Ji, u really should stop it, he told himself. Suddenly someone tapped his right shoulder from behind and he turned around to find Top hyung. Somehow it strangely lifted him up again.
“Ey, bro, I need to use the toilet.”
“Sure, u didn’t need to ask. C’mon now.”
Top hurried off and GD surveyed the scene again. Everybody seemed preoccupied to notice him. Mnet staff are having a ball filming the YG family making some fun on Bom unnie’s talking and getting scolded by the trainer during the last episode and he snatched this opportunity to look for Dara. He found her at the balcony at the back of the apartment enjoying the fresh air. He smiled as he remembered the time Dara was caught by 2ne1tv cam sleeping at their apartment’s balcony. Of course he wouldn’t mind carrying her if that should happen tonight. God, anything to get her in my arms, he thought.
Will u stop thinking and just approach her? He tells himself, as he often does when faced with Dara. Unfortunately he’s not the kind of guy he wrote about in is song Hello. Not with Dara, anyway. With Dara he finds himself somewhat awkward, careful, afraid he’d make a wrong move. Fuck it, Ji, just be yourself. Like a mantra he repeated the words to himself. Just be yourself. You got game. C’mon.
***
Dara positioned her LG Cyon Lollipop phone to take another self cam to update her me2day. “Smile, pretty Dara,” she tells herself. She was about to press the button when she saw something move from behind her.
“Omo!” She screamed.
“Ji!!! What you doing sneaking up like that? GRrr!!! She shouted as she beat his right arm with her left fist.
“Ouch! Ey. Sorry." GD said while controlling himself not to laugh so loud. He didn’t want any of those staff to find them.
“Sup, selca queen? He asked.
“Hmph,” Dara replied, scrunching her nose. “Actually, I was just about to update my fans and tell them you had a great party.”
“Really? With a photo of you face?” He teased him. That’s all he seems to be good at when it comes to Dara.
“Aishh.. You think? Of course I took one earlier when nobody was looking. I love to document. You’ll see. But it’s supposed to be a surprise so I guess I’m no loner posting it.”
“Aww, poor Dara fans.”
They both laugh.
“Ey, have I congratulated u? Yeah, everybody was like saying it earlier. Actually I did too! But don’t know if u heard me.”
“No, I don’t think I did.” But of course he did.
“No? Well, a big congratulations from me. You’re really awesome.” Dara made small bows to him.
“Thanks. Really, its overwhelming…I am still lost for words…” Wait am I being serious? Snap, GD tells himself.
“Ey, tHanks to u too! Hello is doing great. “
Yea, to be honest I was nervous about the people’s response. You have a great song and I really want to be able to contribute my best. I’m happy and relieved they love it."
God, I could just hug her, can i just hug her now please? GD pled with himself.
“Although,” Dara stopped his thoughts, “you got them quite curious who the girl you were talking about in your Butterfly song. Care to share?”
“Ahm, no, not really.” He smiled.
“O c’mon. I won’t tell. Do u have a secret gf?” Dara asked smiling suspiciously on GD.
“I wish.”
“What?”
“Ah, nothing… I mean, as if we could hide any secret from the media. “
“Ok, but you do have someone particular in mind when u wrote that, didn’t u? Oh c’mon do tell!! Promise, I won’t tell the girls. “
“Nah!”
“Oh! So you do have someone! Right right right? Ahhhgg!!!! Who who? Someone we know?”
“Argh.. you are persistent.”
“Yes, and you owe me one. Remember? You said it yourself when u texted me after Hello was finalized.”
“So this is what I do in return for that favor? Sneaky!!! But too easy…are you sure?...hmmm... ok,” he leaned to her ear and whispered, “I can only tell you this, the first letter is Y.”
“Y? Huh? Hey not fair. You have to tell me the full name!”
GD laughed at the sight of Dara when she’s like this. She’s like a kid. Sometimes she’s tough. Sometimes she’s a full lady. But always she’s so beautiful. Snap out if it man! He reminded himself again.
“So what, spill it out.”
“Haha!” he laughed. “If you want the full name you’ll have to collaborate two more times with me. Haha!”
“Aisssshhh…” Dara rolled her eyes. “Yea, collaborate, so ur fangirls will kill me.”
She laughed at her words but suddenly realized what she said.
“Sorry, I mean, it’s just that fans are up to making stories, you know…You don’t want your girl to have a wrong idea… not like she’d think of it just that u know…” She’s stammering now. “I mean… u know what I mean? Actually, just forget it.”
“You mean about the fans pairing us?”
“Yes… you noticed it too?”
“Yea, was browsing around YT earlier…”
“Yea… me too… its nothing really just that”
“Why, do you mind?” GD interrupted her.
“No…no… no… its nothing really…of course there's not a single sense of truth in it…"
Ouch. GD felt his heart twitch. Run GD. He could hear himself.
“…but the thing is," Dara continued, "I’m a huge G-Ri fan.”
And with that they broke into laughter.
***
August 19
GD was in bed at three. He couldn’t sleep yet. He thought about getting online and checking on feedbacks to his album. All this plagiarism issues, he must admit, are getting on his nerve. Why can’t they just give him a break? He felt self-pity for a moment but he focused on the support he has been getting from his family, YG and most of all the VIPs who donated 12 million won to a charity in his name as birthday present, and he told himself its gonna be ok. They can’t hold me down, he told himself.
He turned to Gaho who was lying on his Spongebob blanket, sleeping so peacefully.
“Ey boy, we’re ok right? We got game. They just gonna go hating but deep inside they know they wanna be like us. But they can’t ever be like us bcoz we da leaders. Them just mere followers, cheerleaders. He was smiling now and broke into rapping his song The Leaders.
***
“Dara unnie!” It was CL calling out for Dara.
“Yea?” Dara turned.
“We thought you were already sleeping? Are you? “ CL asked.
“ Yeah, I’m sleepy. Night girls.“ Actually, she has been tossing for an hour now. She can’t really explain what she felt since GD told her about the girl he wrote the song Butterfly for. Is she jealous? No, she tells herself. She can’t think of having a boyfriend right now. Things are going great for her. She feels lucky to be in 2NE1 and she’ll do everything to prove to those who doubt her abilities that she belongs in this group. She is a 2NE1 and she won’t ever bring YG down for choosing her. She has to get better and better until she can prove all the haters wrong. She can’t have anything distracting her from her goal, not even her love life. Especially her love life. She’s well too aware of Top’s feelings for her but her will to excel in her craft has shunned her heart from entertaining him.
But why did she feel a pinch in her heart when GD told her about Y.
Why? because your after all just a girl, Dara. She heard herself tell herself. Ur a just a girl, who falls for a guy when he asks u how your day went, who brings u sandwich when your close to collapsing from hunger- never mind that he brought everyone else too. You’re just a girl who falls when a guy saves u from eating hot chilis - Never mind the embarrassment.
Dara realized she’s not jealous. She’s hurt. She thought she was someone special to GD, with his concern and the teasing of In or Out. Apparently, now, he was just treating her like how he would treat every girl at YG. And he has always been such a tease. Y. Lucky girl. Whoever she is, she must be really really really special. She thought. Awww, Dara, there you go again. You're so foolish for misenterpreting his thoughtfulness for something more. Tears fell on her cheeks and into her heart-shaped pillow as she tightly hugged Tamtam and fell asleep.
***
“Dara unnie? Are u ok? Ur eyes are a little swollen.” Minji asked her as she joined them in the dining table. They had already had their shower.
“Yeah, I’m fine. I just, um, missed my mom.”
“Awww… Dara unnie, u need a boyfriend!” CL said and with that she sang the line “I need a boyfriend!!!”
“Me too!” Answered Bom.
“There you go again, I really wonder what Pres YG thinks about you two singing that. “
But CL just sang again and Bom answered again.
They all laughed.
“I think we should get Bommi unnie a boyfriend first,” Minji said.
“Yeah! Who do u have in mind,” CL asked.
“Hmmm…there's Kush oppa...Seoung Ho oppa...Tedyy oppa...”
“What? Teddy oppa?!! Are u crazy???" CL suddenly stood up and hit the table with both her hands. "Teddy oppa is mine!...Omo!!!” She turned around to face the cameraman, smiled her prettiest smile, and said “You’re not going to show that, are u? Please?”
The girls laughed and so did the cameraman.
“Aisssssssshhhh…” was all CL said.
“Cmon, what’s the deal if they show it. The whole world knows! It’s not like u hadn’t slept with a tofu doll with his pic on it. C’mon.” Dara said.
“Ya ya ya… Fine.” She conceded. “Let’s eat. Enouh with this boyfriend thing."
Amen. Dara heard herself say. No more boys for me from now on. I'm gonna eat my ramen. I am gonna shower. I'm gonna work out. I'm gonna rehearse. And I am definitely gonna be just fine.
***
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August 18, 2009.
GD checked the time. It’s almost 11:30 now, people have slowly left an hour ago. Only YG, his fellow BBs, 2ne1 and SeungHo are left. He can see CL and SeungHo having a fun conversation at one corner while Bom and Minji are busy playing with his dog, Gaho. He surveyed the area. Where could Dara be? he thought. He felt a little burden in his shoulders when he sensed that Top hyung wasn’t there as well. Whatever Ji, u really should stop it, he told himself. Suddenly someone tapped his right shoulder from behind and he turned around to find Top hyung. Somehow it strangely lifted him up again.
“Ey, bro, I need to use the toilet.”
“Sure, u didn’t need to ask. C’mon now.”
Top hurried off and GD surveyed the scene again. Everybody seemed preoccupied to notice him. Mnet staff are having a ball filming the YG family making some fun on Bom unnie’s talking and getting scolded by the trainer during the last episode and he snatched this opportunity to look for Dara. He found her at the balcony at the back of the apartment enjoying the fresh air. He smiled as he remembered the time Dara was caught by 2ne1tv cam sleeping at their apartment’s balcony. Of course he wouldn’t mind carrying her if that should happen tonight. God, anything to get her in my arms, he thought.
Will u stop thinking and just approach her? He tells himself, as he often does when faced with Dara. Unfortunately he’s not the kind of guy he wrote about in is song Hello. Not with Dara, anyway. With Dara he finds himself somewhat awkward, careful, afraid he’d make a wrong move. Fuck it, Ji, just be yourself. Like a mantra he repeated the words to himself. Just be yourself. You got game. C’mon.
***
Dara positioned her LG Cyon Lollipop phone to take another self cam to update her me2day. “Smile, pretty Dara,” she tells herself. She was about to press the button when she saw something move from behind her.
“Omo!” She screamed.
“Ji!!! What you doing sneaking up like that? GRrr!!! She shouted as she beat his right arm with her left fist.
“Ouch! Ey. Sorry." GD said while controlling himself not to laugh so loud. He didn’t want any of those staff to find them.
“Sup, selca queen? He asked.
“Hmph,” Dara replied, scrunching her nose. “Actually, I was just about to update my fans and tell them you had a great party.”
“Really? With a photo of you face?” He teased him. That’s all he seems to be good at when it comes to Dara.
“Aishh.. You think? Of course I took one earlier when nobody was looking. I love to document. You’ll see. But it’s supposed to be a surprise so I guess I’m no loner posting it.”
“Aww, poor Dara fans.”
They both laugh.
“Ey, have I congratulated u? Yeah, everybody was like saying it earlier. Actually I did too! But don’t know if u heard me.”
“No, I don’t think I did.” But of course he did.
“No? Well, a big congratulations from me. You’re really awesome.” Dara made small bows to him.
“Thanks. Really, its overwhelming…I am still lost for words…” Wait am I being serious? Snap, GD tells himself.
“Ey, tHanks to u too! Hello is doing great. “
Yea, to be honest I was nervous about the people’s response. You have a great song and I really want to be able to contribute my best. I’m happy and relieved they love it."
God, I could just hug her, can i just hug her now please? GD pled with himself.
“Although,” Dara stopped his thoughts, “you got them quite curious who the girl you were talking about in your Butterfly song. Care to share?”
“Ahm, no, not really.” He smiled.
“O c’mon. I won’t tell. Do u have a secret gf?” Dara asked smiling suspiciously on GD.
“I wish.”
“What?”
“Ah, nothing… I mean, as if we could hide any secret from the media. “
“Ok, but you do have someone particular in mind when u wrote that, didn’t u? Oh c’mon do tell!! Promise, I won’t tell the girls. “
“Nah!”
“Oh! So you do have someone! Right right right? Ahhhgg!!!! Who who? Someone we know?”
“Argh.. you are persistent.”
“Yes, and you owe me one. Remember? You said it yourself when u texted me after Hello was finalized.”
“So this is what I do in return for that favor? Sneaky!!! But too easy…are you sure?...hmmm... ok,” he leaned to her ear and whispered, “I can only tell you this, the first letter is Y.”
“Y? Huh? Hey not fair. You have to tell me the full name!”
GD laughed at the sight of Dara when she’s like this. She’s like a kid. Sometimes she’s tough. Sometimes she’s a full lady. But always she’s so beautiful. Snap out if it man! He reminded himself again.
“So what, spill it out.”
“Haha!” he laughed. “If you want the full name you’ll have to collaborate two more times with me. Haha!”
“Aisssshhh…” Dara rolled her eyes. “Yea, collaborate, so ur fangirls will kill me.”
She laughed at her words but suddenly realized what she said.
“Sorry, I mean, it’s just that fans are up to making stories, you know…You don’t want your girl to have a wrong idea… not like she’d think of it just that u know…” She’s stammering now. “I mean… u know what I mean? Actually, just forget it.”
“You mean about the fans pairing us?”
“Yes… you noticed it too?”
“Yea, was browsing around YT earlier…”
“Yea… me too… its nothing really just that”
“Why, do you mind?” GD interrupted her.
“No…no… no… its nothing really…of course there's not a single sense of truth in it…"
Ouch. GD felt his heart twitch. Run GD. He could hear himself.
“…but the thing is," Dara continued, "I’m a huge G-Ri fan.”
And with that they broke into laughter.
***
August 19
GD was in bed at three. He couldn’t sleep yet. He thought about getting online and checking on feedbacks to his album. All this plagiarism issues, he must admit, are getting on his nerve. Why can’t they just give him a break? He felt self-pity for a moment but he focused on the support he has been getting from his family, YG and most of all the VIPs who donated 12 million won to a charity in his name as birthday present, and he told himself its gonna be ok. They can’t hold me down, he told himself.
He turned to Gaho who was lying on his Spongebob blanket, sleeping so peacefully.
“Ey boy, we’re ok right? We got game. They just gonna go hating but deep inside they know they wanna be like us. But they can’t ever be like us bcoz we da leaders. Them just mere followers, cheerleaders. He was smiling now and broke into rapping his song The Leaders.
Too fast to live too young to die
Momjibeun jakjiman nae moksorineun gulliver
Naineun jeokjiman I badagui sullivan
Hanbeon doratdahamyeon warrior
My name is g g g g baby baby gd gd baby baby
You want fame
Playing stupid little game
You should check your girl's phone
Cuz my face on the frame
He stopped. Dara. He was thinking of her again. Who could be on her phone? He asked. Does she have a pic of her ex? God, GD, why are you torturing yourself? He asked himself. Why don’t u just ask her to be your girlfriend? Yeah, right, just forget TOP hyung and go ahead and confess everything to Dara. As if it was that easy. Why did TOP hyung have to see her first? Why did he have to support to Big Bang’s plan to get Top and Dara together? They been at it for three years now but since both are so shy and awkward to each other, there hasn’t been much development. Not even after they filmed the MV of Sorry. Top has talked about giving up but they had always encouraged him knowing his true feelings for Dara. He can never betray Top. He can never betray BB or anyone for that matter. But he can wish and he wishes for Dara to notice that he cares for her. That when he asks if she’s ok he doesn’t just ask like he asks everyone. That when he asks if she’s tired he actually meant to ask if there’s anyting he can do for her. Or that when he says “anyeong” when she leaves, he actually wants to say “please stay.”***
“Dara unnie!” It was CL calling out for Dara.
“Yea?” Dara turned.
“We thought you were already sleeping? Are you? “ CL asked.
“ Yeah, I’m sleepy. Night girls.“ Actually, she has been tossing for an hour now. She can’t really explain what she felt since GD told her about the girl he wrote the song Butterfly for. Is she jealous? No, she tells herself. She can’t think of having a boyfriend right now. Things are going great for her. She feels lucky to be in 2NE1 and she’ll do everything to prove to those who doubt her abilities that she belongs in this group. She is a 2NE1 and she won’t ever bring YG down for choosing her. She has to get better and better until she can prove all the haters wrong. She can’t have anything distracting her from her goal, not even her love life. Especially her love life. She’s well too aware of Top’s feelings for her but her will to excel in her craft has shunned her heart from entertaining him.
But why did she feel a pinch in her heart when GD told her about Y.
Why? because your after all just a girl, Dara. She heard herself tell herself. Ur a just a girl, who falls for a guy when he asks u how your day went, who brings u sandwich when your close to collapsing from hunger- never mind that he brought everyone else too. You’re just a girl who falls when a guy saves u from eating hot chilis - Never mind the embarrassment.
Dara realized she’s not jealous. She’s hurt. She thought she was someone special to GD, with his concern and the teasing of In or Out. Apparently, now, he was just treating her like how he would treat every girl at YG. And he has always been such a tease. Y. Lucky girl. Whoever she is, she must be really really really special. She thought. Awww, Dara, there you go again. You're so foolish for misenterpreting his thoughtfulness for something more. Tears fell on her cheeks and into her heart-shaped pillow as she tightly hugged Tamtam and fell asleep.
***
“Dara unnie? Are u ok? Ur eyes are a little swollen.” Minji asked her as she joined them in the dining table. They had already had their shower.
“Yeah, I’m fine. I just, um, missed my mom.”
“Awww… Dara unnie, u need a boyfriend!” CL said and with that she sang the line “I need a boyfriend!!!”
“Me too!” Answered Bom.
“There you go again, I really wonder what Pres YG thinks about you two singing that. “
But CL just sang again and Bom answered again.
They all laughed.
“I think we should get Bommi unnie a boyfriend first,” Minji said.
“Yeah! Who do u have in mind,” CL asked.
“Hmmm…there's Kush oppa...Seoung Ho oppa...Tedyy oppa...”
“What? Teddy oppa?!! Are u crazy???" CL suddenly stood up and hit the table with both her hands. "Teddy oppa is mine!...Omo!!!” She turned around to face the cameraman, smiled her prettiest smile, and said “You’re not going to show that, are u? Please?”
The girls laughed and so did the cameraman.
“Aisssssssshhhh…” was all CL said.
“Cmon, what’s the deal if they show it. The whole world knows! It’s not like u hadn’t slept with a tofu doll with his pic on it. C’mon.” Dara said.
“Ya ya ya… Fine.” She conceded. “Let’s eat. Enouh with this boyfriend thing."
Amen. Dara heard herself say. No more boys for me from now on. I'm gonna eat my ramen. I am gonna shower. I'm gonna work out. I'm gonna rehearse. And I am definitely gonna be just fine.
***
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